A Cappella of the Heart

The end is coming to a close. And as everyone knows, When they leave , they go leaving behind only the memories and the dreamers, lamenting the imminent return to real life.

It does feel pathetic when some one leaves you especially someone who meant the life and hope to you. Perhaps when they depart you are left behind with their memories. We may make new friends, start pooling with them or even start partying with them , trying to forget what has been missing from your life. But They say it's easy to forget your worries and sadness when the weather's warm. But all it takes is one fall breeze to blow reality right back in your face. 

I know it's easy said than done , that Time is the best healer. But as fast as the time passes by , the wounds dont seem to fade away so soon. It takes time for the Wounds to match the pace of the fast moving time. 

Buddha once said "It's better to conquer yourself than to win a thousand battles." But some soldiers just can't give up the fight. And go underground to plan the next war. But it's the true warrior who knows that wars don't end. They simply change. And there can never be peace as long as guns are still loaded and there's plenty of ammunition."

 So the first and foremost thing is that we accept our selves the way we are. Whether Heartbroken or Jolly.  Secondly , never run after revenge. Revenge is the worst pest that can trigger to eat up your innerself. And then definately , there can never be peace in your heart and mind unless , you put your weapons down. 

It's time we change some rules. It's time we change cliques. It's time we change perception. It's time we change ourselves.

And there's no way of knowing if our journey will lead us to pleasure or pain. Hence we can never predict any thing in advance how our relationships may turn out. But all we need is a little faith in us . A little faith in them. And a little faith in what's between the two.

But sometimes we let someone in, only to be left out in the cold. Yet sometimes, despite what we may want, the door just has too many locks. Because , in the end , It's our heart only which sings A cappella , solitary.

Hope you get what you want. 

Love

Ipshita

xx

The Departure

 The end is near

 I have no more strength

 To fight with my fears.

The departure is meant to happen

Its getting harder for life to imagine

When you leave , It would be

A ship sans a captain.

The days that we spent together

Couldnt be more beautiful than a peacock’s feather.

Even though We fought over small things

But in the end , you were the one who gave me wings.

The footprints that you left on my heart

Wouldn’t fade away even after you depart

I know situations will get complicated

But Goodbyes are something I have always hated.

And today when you’ll leave

The memories we created would be clearer than a sieve

But I cant bear the lonliness that would be fetched

Hence , Life cannot be sketched.

So  now its time to set your wings Free

I want to see you fly over the sea

But promise me one thing

You ll never forget me.

Ipshita

Moments Of Peace

Walking down the aisle
I wondered;
what was wrong in me
but with a faint smile 
I consoled..... she must ve 
been prettier than me....

I remembered the vow I had 
made to him
No matter what 
I ll never ever 
question him

So why do I still feel this 
way about him........
Its still one of the unsolved mysteries
Every time I hear his
phone bell rings
I always wished we
had separate destinies

Enough of pain mixed
with horrid sufferings
whereas old age is much better than these
adolescent love shufflings

And now when 
its time for me
to live in peace
instead of mending
the broken heart pieces
Somewhere somehow
some part of my heart
wants to relive those
moments of peace.....

- Ipshita 

Mickey Inception

I cant force you to love

Was the poem through we met 

Having you in my lifebook

Will save me from future regrets

Day after Day meetings

Our stories of endless adolescent love shufflings

Hillarious cornflakes jokes

And never ending facebook pokes

You changed my life to a certain direction 

And now my minnie mind

Is full with your

Incredible mickey inceptions

I love you way too much

Is what we keep fighting for 

"I love you more" " No I love you more" 

which deepens our relation further more

Are we meant to be togather?

Of that I'm dead sure

You may call us the initiative friends

But I call this the story of Barbie and Ken . 

- Ipshita

The Stranger At The CoffeeShop

The door opened swiftly

As I entered and walked

Up to the table briskly

My sights seemed to have blocked.

He gave me a sultry look

Which instantly diverted

My mind from my book.

He sipped the coffee

And looked at me

It felt like I had

Won my trophy.

It was as if we were meant

For each other

But the flirtations that we sent

Created further more Smother.

It was the conversation

Through eyes whch we had

No words No touch

It was the ending whch turned out to be sad.

Then the door opened again

And his girlfreind swayed

I thought to my self maybe he was

The only trophy I had

But i was definately the best game he played. 

-Ipshita

Embrace Your Uniqueness

 

And so I sit and wait for the day

When I can be seen in my own special way

Just myself, How I should be

Not at all perfect – Just perfectly me.

We all are unique, different, one of a kind.  Part of learning who we are is comparing ourselves to those around us. We all go through periods in our lives where we want to be like everyone else in the world but not ourselves.

This is a very normal part of growing up and strangely enough it is a part of process of finding our uniqueness. Just be sure that you just don’t stop there. You need to move on. Once you ve found your uniqueness, It becomes essential to then branch out and add more unique things to you. Of course this doesn’t always apply to looks but also applies o your personality to an overall picture of who you are.

 The differences are the things that define you and give you a sense of who you really are. There are times when you like dressing up in a certain way that the fashion doesnt follow  or you incline your likeness towards a certain material that your best friend doesnt like. But then , that is what makes you unique and diffrent. It doesnt matter , what poeple think of you or how they percieve you. All that matters is , what YOU think of your self and how YOU percieve your self. 

 It was 2 weeks back when me and my friend were talking that my ex best friend passed by in front of me. She was wearing the green T shirt which we always wear in school. However, her’s was faded and didn’t look pleasurable. So I turned to me new friend pointed out that thing to her. My ex friend saw it and instantly thought that I m saying something bad about her. The next thing I knew was she was going around telling people that how I was insulting her and telling other people that she was fat! I was flabbergasted. I thought in my mind. That she can be so insecure and ashamed of herself that she practically thought no other reason of me going and telling ppl but her body couture. This is not her fault. It’s her subconscious mind that spoke this. This basically explains that how unhappy we are from inside and how embarrassed we are of ourselves.

My mother had always told me one thing, Ipshita, Life is too short to be someone else. So be yourself and see how the world revolves around you. These will be the things which will make you a special person and will help you meet that special person in your later life. 

Love 

Ipshita

xx

The Memoirs Of Lovelorn

You came into my life

And changed me inside out

The statement if love that you then devised

I couldn’t change even if I would shout.

Your love captivated me with intensity

And gave my heart a greater density

Even though the moments that we

Spent together

Just couldn’t last forever

The hole that you cuffed inside

Doesn’t seem to ever subside

Its been years since you left

But I still feel the bareness of your theft.

God is the witness of how beautiful

Were those spent moments

Which don’t seem to drift

No matter how hard I experiment.

Even though you hold

A sacred place in my heart

I have taken a vow to

Make a brand new start.

Yes I will fall in love again.

Even though there

Is not much

Gain without any pain

But giving up hope is not

Anymore my thing

However life is short

I must not ignore what it brings

So here  I stand  , sans you

I’m a man of substance

I don’t need anymore

Your fake assurance.

-          Ipshita.

The Magic of The Hands

I have got many forwards saying "Things a guy means when : He looks at you , He kisses your forehead.. " 

Frankly speaking none of them is true even by an inch. Because we devise rules by the indiviual experiences that we have. 

Some say , Holding Hands is a sign of Foreverness. But I completely disagree with that. I never felt any of that when he held my hand. Its just an indiviual experience which is being showered on us, And We want to believe that. Holding  each other;s hands , You feel wanted . You just feel , Some one accepts you for the person you are. You dont know whether that act of holding hands is forever or not. But definatey for that moment , you know Some one IS with you. 

It was before , he held my hand when I used to think , 
Where is the Love ? I cant see it , I cant feel it, i cant touch it. I can hear it. I can hear some words. But then what can I do with your easy words ? 


And then he held my hand for the first time , Things changed for me. It was the best feeling ever. He made me forget if any one else except him exists in the world. He made me Feel HIS. He made me BELONG to him. Its not some cliqued example which I m trying to copy paste here.. But Its what exactly I felt. And the best part , I just did nt feel like leaving it. 

Have you ever got the insecure feeling , that Its the last time you are holding on to each other ? That is exactly the feeling I got , when He let go off my hand. The Magic of his Touch was SO strong that , It could break any barrier. And Just in a moment of time , I could feel all the Love draining out as he left my hand.

 Even though I know that He Loves me more than any body will ever do , but still The Gravity of Love was felt when he left. Its just that mere laying of his hands on mine , that made me realise , How much I love that person. And that person means everything to me. Maybe The grasping on to my hands , means much much more than a kiss to me. His Love is like a symbol of eternity. It wipes out all senses of time , destroying all memory of beginning and all fear for an end.But All I can say is , its that act which makes me Feel , I m His. And Nobody holds me back except him.

Love 

Ipshita 

xx

A Bit of You in Me

It is often said that when you are in Love , the world around you changes. You change. Violins start playing. It starts Raining. Wind starts blowing. You start singing. The whole word goes upside down. Everything goes Haywire. Its All SO Plasticky. Infact , even I used to belive in such fairy tails initially. But It was when I was struck by Love for the second time , I realised , The feelings run much denser than rainwater , much deeper tone than Violin and much higher pitch than singing.

Well , He is the guy who DOES give me butterflies. He IS the guy who does ocassionally send chills all through my body. He is the guy who makes me feel nervous every time his hands brush against mine. He is the person who makes my heart skip beats like a scratched CD when ever he looks staright into my eyes.He is the guy who does make me laugh. He calls me stoopid. He calls me Cute. He calls me everything possible. Bcze he thinks I m his. But , He is NOT wrong. I m his. Love IS the feeling , when you start feeling that you Only & Only belong to THAT person. 

Every one knows , the biggest suprises come in the smallest of the box. I guess , That is how my surprise was. Never did I ever think in my wildest dreams to fall in love in the guy who is my bestfriend.

How much do I love this person ? Why do I love this person ? How did I come to love this person ? Even though I m the source of all of these questions , I still havent been able to find an answer to it.  They say Love conquers all. It conquered me. He conquered me. And my heart. Certain things ,just cannot be described in Love. It just happens. 

Currently , I myself dont know , what matter m I suppose to fill this page with. Whether How much I love him ? Or Why I love him ? If I go question wise , every time he has asked me this question , the only answer I could give him was More than Any one in the world ! But I guess , Its much more than that. Why do I love him ? Well , It s just for the person he is. He doesnt judge me or rule me. Its just simple. I always used to think , Love is Not Simple. But with him , I just feel Love is Simple. Its two superly dependant souls are in love with each other. It is very important for the person to not judge you . It is also very important for him to not overrule you. We know who we are. We love each other . We love everything about each other that hurts.

 We let each other breathe each other's breaths ! We form each other ! We destroy each other. Its every thing togather. And I draw the bottom line that , We live for each other. 

Love 

Ipshita

xx

The Different Feeling

Sometimes we let someone in, only to be left out in the cold. Yet sometimes, despite what we may want, the door just has too many locks.

Being in L O V E  , can be the most outrageous yet the BEST feeling ever. And the best part , It just doesnt happen to you once. It keeps happening to you every now and then . An average person would describe being in Love to be : being EXTREMELY happy or getting innumerable butterflies in your tummy when you think of them or just smiling at your self when you are sitting alone and thinking of them . The most interesting part of being in Love is , you experience a different experience with every new person.  Every new person makes you feel differently loved. 

But I would descirbe it in a very different way. It is not the feeling you keep getting. Its the feeling you get only at certain moments. Its that distinct feeling that you get which can immediately distinguish between a mere crush and your lover. Yes , one does go through the series of Normal experiences of getting burrterflies , blushing when you see them. But If you ask me, we go to the movies because we want to see fairytales. A sleeping queen woken by her true love's kiss. A princess who puts aside her jewels to make her way in the world. Lovers torn apart being brought back together. But life isn't a fairytale. And happy endings are few and far between. In life the young queen becomes a tyrant. And takes her subjects to war. So that's why we need movies. To remind us that, despite it all, love can still spring in the most unlikely of places. And that sometimes, even fairytales can come true. And it does. 

I fail to admit when poeple come up to me and say , Love is not for me. 

 Love IS for everybody. Its just that , we need to have enough patience to look for that person. Love is beautiful. A Life sans love IS Dull.

Love 

Ipshita 

xx

Eclipse of The Heart

With enough time, we all find what we're looking for. Even if it was there all along. And when time slows and suddenly every moment counts, all you want is for this time to last forever. This is exactly the feeling you get when you are in Love. As time passes by ,  But Some say love is a river, some says love's a silly song. Some say love is all around us. It lifts us up where we belong. Some say love is a secret you keep sealed. To some, love is a battlefield. Some say love is hearing laughter in the rain. But here in this place, we all know love is pain. 

We all have diffrent experiences with the word called " Love. " 

It is true , that Love is not easy , Perhaps , It is very essential to understand , that Our hearts are not just merely diagrams. They are much deeper than that. It is not possible that none of us have gone through heartbreaks. Whether it is for not loving enough or loving the other person a bit too much , that you cant let the person breathe. But today , lets ponder over one of the biggest reasons of heartbreaks - being cheated on. 

Being cheated on is pretty common. Infact, every body in life one time or the other either cheats or becomes the victim at the recieving end. Perhaps it's true that , sometimes despite the risk , the only thing to do is seize the moment ,because you are too afraid to loose the person who you love. And land up forgiving the person. Some wait after forgiving for the time to come , when the person would change and things would get better. but for some that time never comes, Instead of healing old wounds, the wait just opens new ones time after time.

Ofcourse , we do realize the fact that, There is always a moment. I can do this. I can give into this or I can resist it. You wont know when the moment was , but you can bet , everybody goes through that moment. We just need to put a control alarm on our selves. But again We have to accept the fact that " To Err is Human " 

 The bible says , there is nothing as saintly as forgiveness. Therefore. Love is not only about selflessly loving each other or going around making compromises. Its more about understanding and forgiving the other person. Because we must not forget , we all humans are made up those seven deadly sins. Next time you face the similar situation, go hug the person tight and tell him , that he is forgiven and try your best to be a better partner.  Give love and Gain Love that is the principle on which your life moves. 

While most people think it's our brain that controls our actions, it's often our heart that gets the biggest workout. It can make us do the craziest of things. But it can also let us take a chance on new adventures. Because when we open our heart we can explore a world of love. And be pleasantly surprised by the people already in our life. But unfortunately our hearts are very sensitive. And when they're broken everything around us is shattered. Total eclipse of the heart. It is tough , but it is NOT impossible. 

Love , Ipshita

xx

The Broken Chords

There are songs that make us want to dance. Songs that make us want to sing along. But the best songs are the ones that bring you back to the moment you first heard them. And once again, break your heart.

Doesn't the world feel perfect when a certain song playing on the stereo just describes the exact condition you are going through ? And especially in times when you are in Love or you are completely heartbroken. People still belive at this satire , that when a person is Totally in Love , he starts composing embarrassing poems or songs. Hahah True. Or otherwise the  comparisions of the Moon to the Female lover wouldnt have been so typical.!! 

Well , Things go undescribed when , you are in Love and you start loving a song SO much that the lyrics of a two and half minute song can describe the position of your relationship. You also come across certain songs which both the partners love and perhaps you both sing and listen to that song in the memory of the lover. Yes music has powers to make you fall in love and also get you out of love.

However the real deal comes when the relationship is broken and somewhere somehow you are scared to hear that song.You are scared to be broken into pieces again . Because , you have worked hard alot to mend those pieces. You are scared to go back to those memories. You are scared that what if you hear that song and everything spills like an overflowing bucket of water. We tell our selves that ,  I m not coward , but I just dont have enough strenght to face the truth. However , everytime you scroll down the playlist in your Ipod , You deliberatley skip the song in order to not remind you of those lost moments. 

The feeling that you feel , can definately not be described. It is simply Weird as we say in coloqiual language. Some feel  lost. Some feel they dont want to go back to the same old moments and be struck by the heartbreak again. But for me , it is something like going back to the same old place and realizing what went wrong and feel completely broken and helpless. It's like running away from your shadow , your past. 

But in the end , you have to accept the fact that , Its the Circle of Life. This is Exactly how life moves. The earlier we accept it , The closer we get to insouciance.


Thanks 
With Love
Ipshita
xx