Embrace Your Uniqueness

 

And so I sit and wait for the day

When I can be seen in my own special way

Just myself, How I should be

Not at all perfect – Just perfectly me.

We all are unique, different, one of a kind.  Part of learning who we are is comparing ourselves to those around us. We all go through periods in our lives where we want to be like everyone else in the world but not ourselves.

This is a very normal part of growing up and strangely enough it is a part of process of finding our uniqueness. Just be sure that you just don’t stop there. You need to move on. Once you ve found your uniqueness, It becomes essential to then branch out and add more unique things to you. Of course this doesn’t always apply to looks but also applies o your personality to an overall picture of who you are.

 The differences are the things that define you and give you a sense of who you really are. There are times when you like dressing up in a certain way that the fashion doesnt follow  or you incline your likeness towards a certain material that your best friend doesnt like. But then , that is what makes you unique and diffrent. It doesnt matter , what poeple think of you or how they percieve you. All that matters is , what YOU think of your self and how YOU percieve your self. 

 It was 2 weeks back when me and my friend were talking that my ex best friend passed by in front of me. She was wearing the green T shirt which we always wear in school. However, her’s was faded and didn’t look pleasurable. So I turned to me new friend pointed out that thing to her. My ex friend saw it and instantly thought that I m saying something bad about her. The next thing I knew was she was going around telling people that how I was insulting her and telling other people that she was fat! I was flabbergasted. I thought in my mind. That she can be so insecure and ashamed of herself that she practically thought no other reason of me going and telling ppl but her body couture. This is not her fault. It’s her subconscious mind that spoke this. This basically explains that how unhappy we are from inside and how embarrassed we are of ourselves.

My mother had always told me one thing, Ipshita, Life is too short to be someone else. So be yourself and see how the world revolves around you. These will be the things which will make you a special person and will help you meet that special person in your later life. 

Love 

Ipshita

xx

The Memoirs Of Lovelorn

You came into my life

And changed me inside out

The statement if love that you then devised

I couldn’t change even if I would shout.

Your love captivated me with intensity

And gave my heart a greater density

Even though the moments that we

Spent together

Just couldn’t last forever

The hole that you cuffed inside

Doesn’t seem to ever subside

Its been years since you left

But I still feel the bareness of your theft.

God is the witness of how beautiful

Were those spent moments

Which don’t seem to drift

No matter how hard I experiment.

Even though you hold

A sacred place in my heart

I have taken a vow to

Make a brand new start.

Yes I will fall in love again.

Even though there

Is not much

Gain without any pain

But giving up hope is not

Anymore my thing

However life is short

I must not ignore what it brings

So here  I stand  , sans you

I’m a man of substance

I don’t need anymore

Your fake assurance.

-          Ipshita.

The Magic of The Hands

I have got many forwards saying "Things a guy means when : He looks at you , He kisses your forehead.. " 

Frankly speaking none of them is true even by an inch. Because we devise rules by the indiviual experiences that we have. 

Some say , Holding Hands is a sign of Foreverness. But I completely disagree with that. I never felt any of that when he held my hand. Its just an indiviual experience which is being showered on us, And We want to believe that. Holding  each other;s hands , You feel wanted . You just feel , Some one accepts you for the person you are. You dont know whether that act of holding hands is forever or not. But definatey for that moment , you know Some one IS with you. 

It was before , he held my hand when I used to think , 
Where is the Love ? I cant see it , I cant feel it, i cant touch it. I can hear it. I can hear some words. But then what can I do with your easy words ? 


And then he held my hand for the first time , Things changed for me. It was the best feeling ever. He made me forget if any one else except him exists in the world. He made me Feel HIS. He made me BELONG to him. Its not some cliqued example which I m trying to copy paste here.. But Its what exactly I felt. And the best part , I just did nt feel like leaving it. 

Have you ever got the insecure feeling , that Its the last time you are holding on to each other ? That is exactly the feeling I got , when He let go off my hand. The Magic of his Touch was SO strong that , It could break any barrier. And Just in a moment of time , I could feel all the Love draining out as he left my hand.

 Even though I know that He Loves me more than any body will ever do , but still The Gravity of Love was felt when he left. Its just that mere laying of his hands on mine , that made me realise , How much I love that person. And that person means everything to me. Maybe The grasping on to my hands , means much much more than a kiss to me. His Love is like a symbol of eternity. It wipes out all senses of time , destroying all memory of beginning and all fear for an end.But All I can say is , its that act which makes me Feel , I m His. And Nobody holds me back except him.

Love 

Ipshita 

xx

A Bit of You in Me

It is often said that when you are in Love , the world around you changes. You change. Violins start playing. It starts Raining. Wind starts blowing. You start singing. The whole word goes upside down. Everything goes Haywire. Its All SO Plasticky. Infact , even I used to belive in such fairy tails initially. But It was when I was struck by Love for the second time , I realised , The feelings run much denser than rainwater , much deeper tone than Violin and much higher pitch than singing.

Well , He is the guy who DOES give me butterflies. He IS the guy who does ocassionally send chills all through my body. He is the guy who makes me feel nervous every time his hands brush against mine. He is the person who makes my heart skip beats like a scratched CD when ever he looks staright into my eyes.He is the guy who does make me laugh. He calls me stoopid. He calls me Cute. He calls me everything possible. Bcze he thinks I m his. But , He is NOT wrong. I m his. Love IS the feeling , when you start feeling that you Only & Only belong to THAT person. 

Every one knows , the biggest suprises come in the smallest of the box. I guess , That is how my surprise was. Never did I ever think in my wildest dreams to fall in love in the guy who is my bestfriend.

How much do I love this person ? Why do I love this person ? How did I come to love this person ? Even though I m the source of all of these questions , I still havent been able to find an answer to it.  They say Love conquers all. It conquered me. He conquered me. And my heart. Certain things ,just cannot be described in Love. It just happens. 

Currently , I myself dont know , what matter m I suppose to fill this page with. Whether How much I love him ? Or Why I love him ? If I go question wise , every time he has asked me this question , the only answer I could give him was More than Any one in the world ! But I guess , Its much more than that. Why do I love him ? Well , It s just for the person he is. He doesnt judge me or rule me. Its just simple. I always used to think , Love is Not Simple. But with him , I just feel Love is Simple. Its two superly dependant souls are in love with each other. It is very important for the person to not judge you . It is also very important for him to not overrule you. We know who we are. We love each other . We love everything about each other that hurts.

 We let each other breathe each other's breaths ! We form each other ! We destroy each other. Its every thing togather. And I draw the bottom line that , We live for each other. 

Love 

Ipshita

xx

The Different Feeling

Sometimes we let someone in, only to be left out in the cold. Yet sometimes, despite what we may want, the door just has too many locks.

Being in L O V E  , can be the most outrageous yet the BEST feeling ever. And the best part , It just doesnt happen to you once. It keeps happening to you every now and then . An average person would describe being in Love to be : being EXTREMELY happy or getting innumerable butterflies in your tummy when you think of them or just smiling at your self when you are sitting alone and thinking of them . The most interesting part of being in Love is , you experience a different experience with every new person.  Every new person makes you feel differently loved. 

But I would descirbe it in a very different way. It is not the feeling you keep getting. Its the feeling you get only at certain moments. Its that distinct feeling that you get which can immediately distinguish between a mere crush and your lover. Yes , one does go through the series of Normal experiences of getting burrterflies , blushing when you see them. But If you ask me, we go to the movies because we want to see fairytales. A sleeping queen woken by her true love's kiss. A princess who puts aside her jewels to make her way in the world. Lovers torn apart being brought back together. But life isn't a fairytale. And happy endings are few and far between. In life the young queen becomes a tyrant. And takes her subjects to war. So that's why we need movies. To remind us that, despite it all, love can still spring in the most unlikely of places. And that sometimes, even fairytales can come true. And it does. 

I fail to admit when poeple come up to me and say , Love is not for me. 

 Love IS for everybody. Its just that , we need to have enough patience to look for that person. Love is beautiful. A Life sans love IS Dull.

Love 

Ipshita 

xx

Eclipse of The Heart

With enough time, we all find what we're looking for. Even if it was there all along. And when time slows and suddenly every moment counts, all you want is for this time to last forever. This is exactly the feeling you get when you are in Love. As time passes by ,  But Some say love is a river, some says love's a silly song. Some say love is all around us. It lifts us up where we belong. Some say love is a secret you keep sealed. To some, love is a battlefield. Some say love is hearing laughter in the rain. But here in this place, we all know love is pain. 

We all have diffrent experiences with the word called " Love. " 

It is true , that Love is not easy , Perhaps , It is very essential to understand , that Our hearts are not just merely diagrams. They are much deeper than that. It is not possible that none of us have gone through heartbreaks. Whether it is for not loving enough or loving the other person a bit too much , that you cant let the person breathe. But today , lets ponder over one of the biggest reasons of heartbreaks - being cheated on. 

Being cheated on is pretty common. Infact, every body in life one time or the other either cheats or becomes the victim at the recieving end. Perhaps it's true that , sometimes despite the risk , the only thing to do is seize the moment ,because you are too afraid to loose the person who you love. And land up forgiving the person. Some wait after forgiving for the time to come , when the person would change and things would get better. but for some that time never comes, Instead of healing old wounds, the wait just opens new ones time after time.

Ofcourse , we do realize the fact that, There is always a moment. I can do this. I can give into this or I can resist it. You wont know when the moment was , but you can bet , everybody goes through that moment. We just need to put a control alarm on our selves. But again We have to accept the fact that " To Err is Human " 

 The bible says , there is nothing as saintly as forgiveness. Therefore. Love is not only about selflessly loving each other or going around making compromises. Its more about understanding and forgiving the other person. Because we must not forget , we all humans are made up those seven deadly sins. Next time you face the similar situation, go hug the person tight and tell him , that he is forgiven and try your best to be a better partner.  Give love and Gain Love that is the principle on which your life moves. 

While most people think it's our brain that controls our actions, it's often our heart that gets the biggest workout. It can make us do the craziest of things. But it can also let us take a chance on new adventures. Because when we open our heart we can explore a world of love. And be pleasantly surprised by the people already in our life. But unfortunately our hearts are very sensitive. And when they're broken everything around us is shattered. Total eclipse of the heart. It is tough , but it is NOT impossible. 

Love , Ipshita

xx

The Broken Chords

There are songs that make us want to dance. Songs that make us want to sing along. But the best songs are the ones that bring you back to the moment you first heard them. And once again, break your heart.

Doesn't the world feel perfect when a certain song playing on the stereo just describes the exact condition you are going through ? And especially in times when you are in Love or you are completely heartbroken. People still belive at this satire , that when a person is Totally in Love , he starts composing embarrassing poems or songs. Hahah True. Or otherwise the  comparisions of the Moon to the Female lover wouldnt have been so typical.!! 

Well , Things go undescribed when , you are in Love and you start loving a song SO much that the lyrics of a two and half minute song can describe the position of your relationship. You also come across certain songs which both the partners love and perhaps you both sing and listen to that song in the memory of the lover. Yes music has powers to make you fall in love and also get you out of love.

However the real deal comes when the relationship is broken and somewhere somehow you are scared to hear that song.You are scared to be broken into pieces again . Because , you have worked hard alot to mend those pieces. You are scared to go back to those memories. You are scared that what if you hear that song and everything spills like an overflowing bucket of water. We tell our selves that ,  I m not coward , but I just dont have enough strenght to face the truth. However , everytime you scroll down the playlist in your Ipod , You deliberatley skip the song in order to not remind you of those lost moments. 

The feeling that you feel , can definately not be described. It is simply Weird as we say in coloqiual language. Some feel  lost. Some feel they dont want to go back to the same old moments and be struck by the heartbreak again. But for me , it is something like going back to the same old place and realizing what went wrong and feel completely broken and helpless. It's like running away from your shadow , your past. 

But in the end , you have to accept the fact that , Its the Circle of Life. This is Exactly how life moves. The earlier we accept it , The closer we get to insouciance.


Thanks 
With Love
Ipshita
xx

Aspects Of Love

Love is a feeling you feel when you feel a feeling you feel you had Never felt before

L O V E  - A four Lettered word , which seems to creep in to our life , the moment we  steped into this world.

The journey starts as a New Born - The moment you are out of that mother's womb and you have entered the mortal world , you are hugged by the person who held you up for 9 months in her. Every body is staring at you in the hospital. Some envy you , Some are happy to have you and for some you mean the whole world , Especially to the poeple because of who you are in the world , Your Parents. The love being given out in excess there , is not much felt or understood by us , But definately cannot be departed from us. Hence , Love is a feeling you feel when you feel a feeling you feel you had Never felt before.

Then you transform into an infant - When you start standing up on your own feet , when you start walking and the moment you start speaking your first word as - Mamma , you instantly put a 100 Watt smile on your parents' face. The love which you get from every known person as well as every stranger you meet is immeasurable. Again perhaps , Love is a feeling you feel when you feel a feeling you feel you had Never felt before

The phase of a kid comes when you are about 7 - 8 years old - In This phase of your life , you develope interests in various activities like Dance , Music , Art , Theatre or even Studies. You start loving it more than anything. Boys especially get inclined towards Sports or Video games. For Girls it is Dance or Music. That becomes the love of your life , Instantly. Here too , Love is a feeling you feel when you feel a feeling you feel you had Never felt before

The entry into your Teenage - The infactuation every early teenager goes through can simply not be described. The entry into your Puberty , makes you infactuated to every 2nd boy or girl passing by. We instantly start feeling grown up. The love felt that time is just not simple. Its complicated . Because  at that time  you dont know whether you are right or wrong. You are just new to this type of feeling. You start experiencing a new phase of life. The secret chits thrown or passed around the class during the teacher teaching you . The winking at each other during the class assemblies.The Awkwardness during a movie being watched togather when a romantic scene comes. Everything is just Fresh & New. Once again , Love is a feeling you feel when you feel a feeling you feel you had Never felt before 

The mid Teenage period -  When you just enter 15 , you start having the first relationship of your life. You have your first kiss at the age of 15. You have your first date. Love starts having a diffrent meaning all togather in your life. The person starts to mean a lot more than your dance or sport now. Perhaps even more your parents. You generally go out of your way to meet the guy . You go against your parents. You sneak out. You turn out to be a rebel. Then the time between 17 and 18 , you have loose the most important thing in your life. Your Virginity. It means a lot to alot of people. You indulge in having sex with the person, you aint even sure if you ll marry him . You think Love is Sex. And hence , we aint wrong. Cze that very moment , Love IS Sex. We get hit by Blind Love. 

And then comes the Dreadful heart brake. Some are lucky to have a relationship stable but some just arent able to continue it. Either the boy or the girl for some reason or the other leaves the other. Days of crying , yelling , shouting , madness , inexplainable thoughts creep into your system. Perhaps , Love is a feeling you feel when you feel a feeling you feel you had Never felt before

And then you surpass your Teenage infactuation and land into the Marriage by 25 - Love starts having a diffrent meaning in life. Its not Sex , Its not Love Letters , Its not even Sports . Its LOVE. When you realize that you want to spend your whole life with a man/woman and want to have children with.  There love doesnt only mean fantasy but there love comes with Repsonsibilty and compramize. Yet again Love is a feeling you feel when you feel a feeling you feel you had Never felt before

Love definately gives a very different feeling at every stage of your life that you definately would have never felt before.

 I hope it was fun reading the whole blog as much as it was for me to write. 

Love , Ipshita
xx

YOU are the Key for YOUR Happiness

Me and My Best Friend have always had great expectations from life. We knew it very well that one day we will grow out to be highly ambitious women who would be torn apart by life just because We Expected a LOT from life. Our needs never ended. Not only materialistic needs. The need of Excessive love , Immeasurable pleasure ,  the complexity luxury , Satisfying Sex life and yes ofcourse the Immature splurging of Paper resoures on materials like Dresses and Shoes !  We thought life was easy . Parents are rich. They give you money . And Money Buys everything. For this instance , We even thought love.

I somehow managed to make my self understand the adverse effect of such behaviour as I grew up . But my Best Friend , did not , could not. It was the end of summer 2009. I went for a day spend with my best friend at her place.  It was me and our other classmates who assimilated together that day to finish our English Holiday Homework at her place.  I saw something very bizarre about her that day . She didn’t speak much , she didn’t  eat any of those KFC  chicken which used to be her Favourite !  She was there the whole day like a dummy. There were many times that I tried confronting her , however due to people around she could not confide in me  .  

The day passed and when everybody left , I made a point to go to her and talk to her.  She waved the last person out of her house and I then walked upto her and I asked her if she wanted to grab some Hot chocolate and Oreo milkshake ? She said yes.

It was when we were sipping our Oreo Milkshakes and Gobbling over Hot chocolate pastries in Lavazza , that she finally spoke . She told me “ Ipshita , You know what ? There is something really missing in my life , and I don’t know what is that ! But the "absence of that thing" is making me really upset “  I looked at her in a very  perplexed way. She Continued “  I don’t know , But I really think there something really missing in my life. I have so much money yet I m not happy . My parents love me yet  , I don’t know why I m searching for a different kind of love . Ipshita , I never told you I was always attracted to a guy in our class , but he never seemed to borther about me if I only existed. I feel lost and meaningless about life. I don’t have a Perfect life. I m not happy ! Not like you are as always . “  When you read this , you must have been thinking , how fairytailsh are these girls.  I thought the same way at that time , But My friend need to get out of her Disney Perfect Bubble and see the real world. 

That was when I told her only one thing “ Life s not a bed of Roses , sometimes it lifts you to the ecstasy of heaven with its aroma and sometimes its thorns prick you to make you realize the hardships.  The faster you realize that Nobody’s life is perfect , and all you can do is enjoy every moment the way it comes , you’ ll see yourself happier.And never judge a book by its cover. I do have several bad times in life but  We can do nothing , every time we will try our life will never be perfect .  And the faster you realise that , the more happier you will be in life ahead. And remember , only you can make yourself happy . No material or person can . You are the reason for your happiness.“And after that day and that very milkshake and hot chocolate , She understood what I meant  and the next time we went to that cafe , we didn’t try our usuals milkshake and pastry , but we tried something new which gave us more happiness.

When You Fly High , You Fall Deeper

Having Expectations is

the essence of life.

But making the stakes higher,

Could lead your life to strife.

Moribound emotions, trapped hesitations

ceasless suffocation & emotional precipitations.

Seem to be just a few words for you,

But this is not the kind of life I wanted to sew.

Nothing except myself should be

holding me back,

But high expectations in life

put me on the railway tracks.

Life from an altitude

Looks like the place, you knitted

to have your own attitude.

But how can I always put the blame,

For you romance had

always been a Love Game.

In this pathetic world of sublime,

Quenching for your love

Was always on my mind

I dont believe in destiny or fate,

All I wanted was to have Your own say

All I needed from you was an answer,

So you made me fly high

But made me fall even deeper.

-Ipshita

You Simply Laughed

It is the end of our journey 

You came to meet me

You saw me and you laughed

That was the only thing to see

For weeks I had starved.

We decided to take a walk 

Under the mallow starstruck sky 

Walk and Talk ; Walk and Talk 

Didnt get a hint that things could turn so sly.

And then you propsed me with your

Decision to say Goodbye,

But in those crystal eyes , even under the dark sky

I couldn't read the pain of abandoning memories

That we had beautifully passed by

You saw me crying and you laughed.

I know things are very easy for you

Everything's a joke, But Pure love

Only get a few , You had no clue

How lucky you were; to get someone

Who loves you ; cares for you

But you prefered a fling in lieu.

I don't want a fling 

I always wanted a real thing

You thought it was too fairytalish

You again stood there and laughed

Laughed till your stomach hurted

Seeing that , my tears overflooded.

And then I realised

Itwas the time to end it.

Put it a full stop , no comma , No exclamtion.

I cried in the moving box

You saw me and yet you laughed

I left the room , crying , Red Eyes

And still all you did was 

Laugh and smile.

- Ipshita

I Can't Force You To Love

We started off as strangers
Ended up making others stangers for us

As days passed by
And the spark in us grew
The meaning of life , now
Only started being with you

Long lost dates , 3 am conversations
Bunches of pink orchids and endless flirtations
It all seemed so true ; but who knew
As the months passed by , the slow poison started to brew

I tried and tried no matter how hard
To my utmost best
But the fights and misunderstandings
Created holes like a pest

And then came the turning point
When the brewed up feelings erupted
How could that happen to us ?
I thought we weren't so corrupted.

I hung up the phone , and made a heroic exit,
No crying , no shouting only internal pain
Running away from true love
Holds no great prestige

Yes I stil love you
And I was out black
Come back soon
I want you back

But what's the point in making so many curves
After all I can't force you to love.




-Ipshita